Joy Or Sadness

Some people write of time
filled with joy
of places real peaceful
or between girl and boy
clouds of white
on a clear summers day
kids having a fight
in the barn with hay
everything known to mankind
that makes people happy
and brings peace to the mind

But I myself have a lonely heart
theres blackness inside
that just tears it apart
those clouds of white
have turned to a dark gray
the summer has turned
to a cold winter day
the peace I search
is no where to be found
Its time to give up
my knees hit the ground
I can no longer go on
death is to far away
I pray to you now
God...please take me away